"I got these questions always running through my head. So many things that I would like to understand"

Almost fuckin' cried today. Tears forming in my eyes.


I'm sorry. It's not that don't trust you. I trust you with all my life. It's just my feelings are getting in the way. 101% percent and my heart on the line that I trust and love you. I just feel that if I don't share I'll end up suffering on the inside. When you're angry. I feel like a terrible person. But at the same time I'm really glad that when you're angry, It means you care. Thought through in my stupid head. I'm quitting. For sure. Nonetheless all the bad influences. I promise. All my friends reminded me of my bad habits. I tried to change them. But the foolish me had done it again. I feel really bad. And stupid. Me and my best friend, and arch enemy at the same time named "jealousy" messed me up BIG time. I really love you. 101%. Every time I create a mistake, I feel so selfish. I'm sorry but I wish we would talk about it soon.